Row is an only child and not because that’s something we have chosen but rather something that chose us. We’ll talk about that in a bit. Since Row is our only child and I’m most likely-because you never know-only going to get to do this thing once I’m trying to get it all in. Projects, memories, experiences-the good stuff. So I saw this cute project on Pinterest and had to do it. They’re foot print stepping stones. One for each year! As each year passes I’ll make a new one with the opposite foot , name and age. I’m a sucker for things like this. It seemed easy enough! I snagged some plastic planter bottoms at the dollar store, the smallest amount of concrete-ready to mix you can buy, and a trowel. Oh and Lon-because concrete was kind of scaring me-actually concrete on stuff was scaring me. It ended up being really simple. We mixed the powder to five parts water, filled the plastic container and let sit for about 2 hours.
Once it was firm but not solid we pushed in Row’s feet-she loved it! I quickly used the back of a plastic spoon to write in the cement. We let it set overnight on our covered porch and bam-instant stepping stone. I made two-one for us and one for a gift. How easy right!
Also I’m a little bit behind but I’m going to start joining in on Friday Favorites over at Momfessionals! Love this blog! Every Friday readers share a favorite thing or things for under ten dollars and link up on her site.
My fav. thing this week is roll on perfume! Small and perfect. I especially love this scent. Pacifica Tuscan Blood Orange snagged at Ulta. I love also that you can use it up and not have to spend and entire decade of spraying.Oh and it’s just above ten dollars but less with your coupon!
So some of you may know but others may not. Row is an IVF baby. We struggled for years to have children. Actually in the beginning it was super easy to get pregnant on our own but after two miscarriages I went straight to a specialist. After five years and four miscarriages-pills, shots, IUI’s and finally IVF our miracle was born. So many people around you go through infertility. It has truly changed who I am. And who I will forever be. The loss and hopelessness of those days are never forgotten. I know how hard it is to sit and watch a friend or family member go through the struggle. Because it doesn’t just affect the couple. 1 in 4 couples will struggle with infertility. Someone you know….someone who may not say anything….it can happen to anyone. You can have children and have it happen after. There’s nothing you can say except I’m sorry, I’m here. Our fourth and final attempt at IVF failed this week. My heart was broken as I found out the two perfect embryos that had been placed inside me did not survive. I struggle to find the answers because there are none. What I do know is this. It was an honor to have carried those lives for even two weeks. To be the vessel for them, to feel heartache so that they may freely move to heaven knowing only love and want. To meet their siblings already in heaven. Sometimes it doesn’t end the way you think or hope it will but it’s ok. I choose to find the joy. It wasn’t always this way. Throughout our journey I faced hopelessness and despair. I rested my heart in HIS hands. HE lifted me. HE sent Row. If you are struggling with infertility I am sorry….I am sorry for your heart ache and your loneliness. But know you are never truly alone.
Choose hope and joy.
